Saturday, December 31, 2011

     I am very mindful of my status with my financial aid. Loans, grants, etc. I've been in contact (or should I say, attempted contact) with my financial aid rep for most of this year. I have been trying to find out exactly how close I am to running out. Her answer was always: "You're okay." Well, that's not exactly an answer in my book, and I assume she knows how much I'd have left. I'm pretty sure when I'm about to run out she'd warn me, right?
     I also have been logging in to my school account which allows me to see that I was approved for the whole year (something Martha informed me of in her very snotty tone- go to the website, go to the website. Yes, that tells me about this year, but what about NEXT year?). I apply, I fill papers out and provide whatever they ask me for. Certainly they wouldn't let me run out and just leave it as a surprise, would they???
     They would. They really would. From what I can see, I am out of financial aid. Why am I really not surprised?
     I've seen other students get this nasty surprise. I've seen the school let them continue, then pull them out of class one day and inform the student they owe a few thousand dollars. Nice. Want to transfer? Pay up. I don't want that surprise.
     I'm in touch with a couple of different schools, and I think I'm going with Downey Adult School. I really am interested in Simply Steno. That was my absolute first choice. Not only would I actually be able to AFFORD it, but I love the way the program is set up, everyone I've read about who attends seems to love it.
     I am a little upset that January 3rd is right around the corner, and as far as I know, I will not be enrolled anywhere. I don't know if I can get things set up that fast. I don't want to be on a break. Breaks are too easy to extend. Breaks can make you lazy. Breaks can turn into forever.
     Whoa, this blog is turning into a downer! Let's back out of that right now. I know I'm going to continue, and I hope to continue January 3rd. If I don't...well...I don't. I will keep practicing on my own and get back into school the next semester.
     Switching gears, I've been reading over Twitter and Facebook this evening, looking at the various well wishes of Happy New Year and the resolutions. I especially love the New Year's Resolutions! I like to see what other people are trying to change, where their goals are, and how high they are reaching.
So you know I am going to ask- what are YOUR New Year's Resolutions??

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Do you have enough to do today?

     If you were like me, when you were a kid you never had enough to do. Time moved so slowly for me! I wanted to grow up, I wanted to skip junior high and high school and go straight to college. When I finally was old enough to go to college, I wanted to take as many classes as I could to get all of my pre-reqs out of the way. I wanted things to happen NOW. I wanted to be finished YESTERDAY. I'd look forward to piles of homework and a tight schedule of classes, but I think I was in love more with the IDEA of that than the reality.

     I've been gone for quite a long time, so let me update you a little on what has been going on with me. I have been doing the mom thing, of course, and I had a part-time job helping my mom out since she's a little older. I'm very lucky since obviously my job was at home. Budget cuts happen, of course, and my hours were cut and I'd been looking for a second job for months. I was lucky enough to find a second job (also at home) recruiting blood donors. I work for an awesome company, I just could not have gotten luckier.  I started part time, 15 hours a week. Anytime they asked me to work an extra day or extra shift I jumped on it. I like to be reliable, and I believe if you're good to your employer, they will be good to you. They offered me an additional shift, and shortly after that, another shift. I was working 35 hours in addition to the hours I put in for my mom. My daughter joined the Girl Scouts and I'm a helicopter mom (or you could just say involved) so I go to her meetings and activities. My schedule was something like this:

                      7am-10 First Shift
                      10am-11am- Off (Usually running errands or just spent walking the dogs/laundry,etc)
                      11-1- Second Shift
                      1-3- My daughter comes home from school, possibly more errands/shopping/housework/
                      3-6- Third Shift
                     6:30-8:30 Speed Class

     Repeat that on Wed, Tuesday and Thursday basically the same except no Speed Class, which would be replaced with practice if I was lucky. Friday I work usually the morning and maybe an afternoon shift if they needed me. I was falling behind on my school work, stressing out and burning out.

     My mom fell and broke her hip in early November. She's gone through two surgeries and is still in the hospital. She is supposed to be out before Christmas, and I pray that she is, because she is the glue that holds this family together. Isn't that the way with Moms? 

     My boss has been wonderful!! I took the entire first week off, and I've dropped one of my shifts for now. This entire quarter is passing me by and all the sudden I have one more week left. One bright spot is that I'm halfway out of the class, I passed one speed test, and I'd wanted to pass the other before the end of the quarter. True to my style, I still want to and refuse to believe it can't be done.

     If you're still with me, thank you! I apologize for being gone so long and for rambling. If I have a point, and I'm not even sure that I do- it's don't give up. I'm still not giving up, even with things as crazy as they are. I want this too badly to give up, and even though I've been in school quite a while, and I'm not moving along as quickly as I want, and I can't study as much as I want to, I'm not giving up. I'm going to keep trying, and I hope you will keep trying too.